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Sep. 24th, 2001 01:41 amSaturday was recovery day from Friday. Getting in at 6am and waking up at 10am does not leave one with much energy. Wandered Piedmont with Di taking pictures then to Little 5 where she bought a wig. I skipped my 10 year high school reunion partly because of exhaustion and partly because I didn't want to spend $60 to see a bunch of people I didn't like a decade ago. All the people I was friends with in high school I still see, so who really cares about the rest of them?
I did get rather introspective for a while looking back over the last 10 years. Since high school I have gone to college and graduated, held my first real job, lost my virginity, discovered drugs, started smoking, become self supporting, grown up, gotten tattoos and piercings, made new friends, lost old friends, seen friends die, fallen in and out of love, discovered the internet, been to a bunch of weddings, seen my friends have children and had countless moments of pure joy and terrible pain. Not in that order of course...
Out of my circle of friends from high school, I am virtually the only straight and single one left. Why? The short answer is I'm picky and shy. The long answer is more complicated: I got started late on social skills and I'm still a little shaky on them. As a result, I have never been good at reading male/female interaction. I can't tell if a girl is interested and if I should make a move. Also, I have a weird opinion of the lines between sex, friendship and love. As a result, I rarely find women that I am attracted to both physically and mentally. I'm not saying that I need to find the perfect woman. However, I have turned down offers before because the person just wasn't right. Of course, the last person I found attractive both physically and mentally shot me down when I made a move. I was lucky that she didn't freak out, because she's a friend I would hate to lose.
All this means I don't have real relationships often. Lucky for me when I do, they don't crash and burn. My last two serious girlfriends remained friends with me after we broke up.
Many of my friends have claimed that they need to find me a girlfriend, but rarely do they ever actually follow through and introduce me to anyone.
Will I ever meet that perfect someone? Who knows? Until then, I may be stranded in single guy land. It's not the best place to be, but it could be a hell of a lot worse.
I did get rather introspective for a while looking back over the last 10 years. Since high school I have gone to college and graduated, held my first real job, lost my virginity, discovered drugs, started smoking, become self supporting, grown up, gotten tattoos and piercings, made new friends, lost old friends, seen friends die, fallen in and out of love, discovered the internet, been to a bunch of weddings, seen my friends have children and had countless moments of pure joy and terrible pain. Not in that order of course...
Out of my circle of friends from high school, I am virtually the only straight and single one left. Why? The short answer is I'm picky and shy. The long answer is more complicated: I got started late on social skills and I'm still a little shaky on them. As a result, I have never been good at reading male/female interaction. I can't tell if a girl is interested and if I should make a move. Also, I have a weird opinion of the lines between sex, friendship and love. As a result, I rarely find women that I am attracted to both physically and mentally. I'm not saying that I need to find the perfect woman. However, I have turned down offers before because the person just wasn't right. Of course, the last person I found attractive both physically and mentally shot me down when I made a move. I was lucky that she didn't freak out, because she's a friend I would hate to lose.
All this means I don't have real relationships often. Lucky for me when I do, they don't crash and burn. My last two serious girlfriends remained friends with me after we broke up.
Many of my friends have claimed that they need to find me a girlfriend, but rarely do they ever actually follow through and introduce me to anyone.
Will I ever meet that perfect someone? Who knows? Until then, I may be stranded in single guy land. It's not the best place to be, but it could be a hell of a lot worse.
